What holds us back from doing what’s good for us?
I’m an INFJ. And us INFJs love peace. No conflict necessary. Do as much as possible to not get in a tizzy. Don’t bother anyone. Smile and be good and let everyone do their own thing, right?
That comes with some problems. Because sometimes (as you could probably guess), being able to say no is a good thing.
Having boundaries is a good thing.
Figuring out how to love through conflict (not just ignore it) is a good thing.
And it’s messy and scary.
And it takes bravery.
And it’s oh so good.
A lot of times… doing what is good for us can feel like conflict. Whether we’re battling what peoples’ opinions of us might be if we do the thing. Or whether it’s because there’s risk involved. Less money. Something new. Unexplored territory.
Here’s a question I like to ask myself- does it feel “good scary”? Like “God is leading this and I’ve prayed about it, so I know He has my back and it’s healthy.”
Or does it feel like an “oh crap” sort of scary.
There’s a difference. Have you felt it?
I love when I get to feel the “God’s got my back” type of scary. I think it’s such a healthy feeling. It’s called moving forward. It’s called trust. It’s called exercising patience and getting rid of self. Thinking beyond what you know is good and normal and okay and trusting that God has the details. That’s good scary.
Time and time again in the past year and a half God has got my back. I freelance, and that’s no walk in the park. It can come very hard for some people. For me, it feels natural.
But somehow from the beginning He gave me the grace to trust through this. Scared, yes. But trust.
Because I know He’s led me into this, I can really confidently say, “Hey God, this isn’t my thing. Help.” (Pretty please. Because otherwise I can’t do it. I don’t have the energy. I don’t have the resources. I don’t have the know-how. Uncharted territory.
And you know what-
He’s showed up.
He has beyond showed up.
The thing is, circling in my thoughts has been- God, if you do this, you totally get the glory. None of this is me. None of living this life of freedom that I really, really enjoy is me.
None of it.
He gets the glory for it.
And time and time again I’ve seen Him show up.
I’ve seen Him lead me. I’ve seen Him connect me. I’ve seen Him do His will.
And so instead of praying, “God, bless my business.” (Although I do want that.) I guess the bigger prayer- is God do your will. If this is good for me and you, do it please.
And the corollary- if this is not good. Please please please God don’t. And being open to that.
But so worth it.
So I’m throwing it out there. What if a little more trust got you a little more freedom? Ha I’m not saying you need to jump into the freelance life. Not that literal. But moreso…
What if a little more trust brought you a little less worry. A little more peace. Some openness and beauty and free-falling in a good way that you’ve never had before.
Because when that happens God can do more than expected.
Not just the little bit that you’re holding onto.
“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” – Ephesians 3:16-21