I’ve been feeling a lot of tension lately. Tension in making decisions. In friendships. About life transitions. Tension about what’s next. Uncertainty. The anxiety builds. Have you felt it? And beyond that, there’s tension all around, seemingly surrounding so much that it’s tempting to not just cover my ears and move forward. To shut my ears and close my eyes and hope it’s all over soon. That love would just reign sooner rather than later and the tension could just be… done.
What holds us back from doing what’s good for us? I’m an INFJ. And us INFJs love peace. No conflict necessary. Do as much as possible to not get in a tizzy. Don’t bother anyone. Smile and be good and let everyone do their own thing, right? Welllll… That comes with some problems. Because sometimes (as you could probably guess), being able to say no is a good thing. Having boundaries is a good thing. Figuring out how to love through conflict (not just ignore it) is a good thing
What do you do when you feel like you pray and you get it wrong? I’ve been struggling with this. That’s the root of it. But my first thoughts that showed me this was the problem is… I stopped writing for a bit. Why? Because I wrote things about what I prayed about. And then it didn’t pan out how I thought. And I got scared. And then I realized the responsibility of writing. The responsibility of sharing things and presenting them as truths. (Not that I shared untruths or lies